The Rest Is Still Unwritten

Whew!

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 18:28:55 GMT

After all the strung-out nerves, months at the gym, boxes of whitestrips, tear-stained cheeks, and the hours upon hours spent worrying, I'm proud to say that I LOVE MY HEADSHOTS!!

Yes, indeed.

Stolen from Pat (we tend to do that to each other's journals)

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 15:16:30 GMT

SEVEN THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. Work on Broadway
2. Get married and have kids
3. Be the singing voice of a Disney Princess
4. Spend a year living in Paris
5. Sing the national anthem at Yankee stadium
6. Walk the red carpet
7. Run for political office

SEVEN THINGS I CAN´T (OR WON´T) DO:
1. Give up
2. Stop loving
3. Let my sister forget how important she is to me
4. Kill a bug for myself
5. Live a life without pets
6. Change who I am to appease other people
7. Let money hurt my relationship with anyone

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. "I love you"
2. "God damn it"
3. "I miss Greta"
4. "I want some chocolate"
5. "Jesus Christ"
6. "I want to go back to Paris"
7. "I have to write an email"

SEVEN MOVIES I COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. Anything from the original Star Wars trilogy
2. Office Space
3. LOTR trilogy
4. The Princess Bride
5. An Affair to Remember
6. Gone With the Wind
7. Moulin Rouge

SEVEN VIDEO GAMES THAT THE STORY JUST GRABS YOU:
1. Any of the Zelda games
2. Civilization!
3. That's about it

SEVEN BOOKS I WILL ALWAYS OWN A COPY OF:
1. Pride and Prejudice
2. Gone With the Wind
3. Atlas Shrugged
4. LOTR trilogy
5. Atonement
6. Jane Eyre
7. 1984

1. DO YOU LIKE ANIMALS?
If I could deal with the blood and guts thing, I'd probably have been a vet

2. HAVE YOU EVER MET AN ONLINE FRIEND IN PERSON?
Uh...no

3. ARE YOU ATHLETIC?
Not terribly

4. ARE YOU THIN, ATHLETIC, FAT ETC..
About average, maybe a little towards the thin side

5. HOW MUCH DO YOU WEIGH?
A lady doesn't disclose that sort of information

6. WHAT´S YOUR HEIGHT?
5'3"

7. SHOE SIZE?
7.5

8. GIRLS- ARE YOU TOMBOYISH, GIRLY, NORMAL..ET
Classy :) (minus the sailor's mouth)

9. GUYS?

10. HOW OLD ARE YOU?
21 in 12 days

11. WHEN´S YOUR B-DAY?
7/11/1986

12. DO YOU LIKE TO RECEIVE GIFTART?
No one ever makes me anything, I'm always the one who does the crafty shit, but I think I would really like it

13. ARE YOU SOCIABLE?
Around people I'm comfortable with

14. DO YOU HAVE MANY FRIENDS?
I have a good amount, but I tend to have fewer close friends, rather than a lot of acquaintances

15. WHAT´S YOUR RACE?
Irish/Scottish/Italian/English/Viking

16. DO YOU LIKE TO TALK ON THE PHONE?
Yeah, I love my phone

17. ARE YOU SINGLE OR TAKEN?
Enjoying being taken

18. DO YOU EAT MEAT?
Yeah, but I prefer the carbs

19. ARE YOU PARANOID?
About a few things

20. DO YOU READ A LOT?
I would read a lot more if I had the time I used to

21. DO YOU LISTEN TO MUSIC? WHAT KIND?
Pop rock, Jazz, Blues, Broadway

22. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Voice, Piano, Oboe, African Drums, Marimba, I'm getting bored, etc.

23. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN DRAWING?
You don't want to see my drawing...ask Dan

24. WHAT´S THE MEANING OF LIFE?
Be as happy as you can and try to help others to be the same

In Honor of Shakespeare's Birthday and Baptism

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 16:00:41 GMT

I know it's late, but what can you do? I'm posting one of my favorite sonnets that I've written this year (and there have been a lot because I'm a loser) in honor of Will. Here goes:

I grasp your sweatshirt searching for your scent,
More potent than a field of poppies fresh.
Your calming music seems from heaven sent
As waking thoughts and dreams begin to mesh.
I almost feel your arms around me tight
And hear your whisper coaxing me to sleep
More gently than a breeze pursues its kite.
The fingers on the clock begin to creep
As eyelids heavy with fatigue must sink.
A smile crawls deftly 'cross my peaceful face
When from a pool of you my mind can drink,
Whilst night does force me to my rightful place.
To be this far from you indeed is dreary,
But loving thoughts of you make me less teary.

What's What

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 17:52:20 GMT

Well, the Shakespearean insult fortune cookies that Kelly and I made for McFeely's class on Shakespeare's birthday were a big hit. And we got extra credit for baking cookies, how can you go wrong?

On an unrelated note, I wonder these days what makes a friend, really. I try my best to be a good friend and help everyone I love to whatever extent I can. I feel like a lot of people I trust and care about have let me down in recent weeks and months and I'm not sure why. I feel as though I've only grown as a person lately and maybe that's the problem. Maybe some people only like me when I'm miserablely bitter and I guess if so, then they weren't really friends to begin with.

But that's a tough bite to swallow.

"She's suffering from cushion disease..." "Cushion disease?" "Yes, my dear, she wants stuffing!"

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 00:21:38 GMT

So not to gloat or anything (because I'm certainly not, believe me), but I've had a pretty awesome couple of days.

Yesterday I found out that (for the first time ever) I got a major part in Camille, one of the department shows next semester. I'm pretty freaking psyched about that, hence why one of my scenes from the play is the subject of this entry.

I also found out today that I'm getting inducted into the honors society Phi Beta Kappa, so that was also exciting.

The Preemie walk is ten days away and I'm only a little over a hundred dollars short of my goal. Anyone who wants to donate, the link is in my AIM profile. I can't wait to do the walk. It's going to be so much fun. We're getting t-shirts made with Greta's picture on them for everyone who's walking and everything.

I'm also excited because I'm going to be doing so much travelling this summer (which I love). First Colorado, then Alabama, then Scotland, then Alabama again and thrown in there are a couple of trips to Washington D.C. and Dan's hometown in Massachusetts.

Okay, I'm going to end this entry now before it gets out of hand. I have two midterms tomorrow that I'm unprepared for, so I'm going to go attempt to see what I can do about that before it's too late. Peace.

Rawleigh Quote of the Week

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 04:45:52 GMT

"Can I get a pair of legs on the set? Who has nice legs? Kate!"

I Dare Ya...

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 18:32:53 GMT

Create your own Friend Test here

Amusing surveys are all I have the patience for

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 04:57:25 GMT

You Are Destined to Rule the World

You have the makings of a very evil dictator...
Which is both kind of cool and kind of scary!
Will you rule the world? Maybe. Maybe not.
But at least you know that you could.

Are You Destined For World Domination?

You Are 80% NYC

You are probably a real New Yorker, though there's a good chance you really live on Long Island.

How NYC Are You?

I could really go for a cookie right about now

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 19:29:06 GMT

You Are a Black and White Cookie

You're often conflicted in life, and you feel pulled in two opposite directions.
When you're good, you're sweet as sugar. And when you're bad, you're wicked!

What Kind of Cookie Are You?

Surveys! [I blame Laura for getting me started]

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 14:59:15 GMT

You've Experienced 60% of Life

You have a good deal of life experience, about as much as someone in their late 20s.
You've seen and done enough to be quite wise, but you still have a lot of life to look forward to.

How Much Life Experience Do You Have?

Never Date an Aquarius

Freaky, unconventional, and downright strange - it's likely that any Aquarius will weird you out.
And if you do happen to fall for an Aquarius, you'll probably find them too emotionally distant to connect with.

Instead try dating: Cancer, Pisces, Capricorn, or Virgo

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

Haha, I should either date myself or Dan. Hmm, tough choice.

You Are Very Worldly

You're an international jet setter - or pretty darn close.
And while you may feel like you have many more places to visit...
Most people live their whole lives without seeing what you've seen.
In fact, you're probably going to be traveling again soon. So Bon Voyage!

How Worldly Are You?

You Are Sex On the Beach

When comes to drinking, you like it to go down smooth.
You really don't like the taste of alcohol - just its effect on you.
So, you're proud to get drunk on fruity, girly drinks.
Because once you're liquored up, the fun begins!

What Alcoholic Drink Are You?

You Have Fantastic Karma

You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person.
And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already.
But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway.
You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that!

How's Your Karma?

Walk this way

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 21:03:25 GMT

I wonder what the way you walk says about you. I, for instance, take extremely small steps, but walk very very quickly, which leads me to end up covering a moderate distance. That, at least, is what I can tell from comparing myself to people I've walked next to. What does it say that I take abnormally small steps (even for my relatively short height) and that it feels uncomfortable to extend the length of my strides? What does it say that I am always clickity-clacking along in my heels at a brisk pace? Does it say anything at all or am I just overanalyzing this because I have nothing better to think about?

Blue fingers have I

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 19:19:04 GMT

You Are More Yang

Masculine
Creative
Angry
Spring
Summer
Morning
Sun
Space
Active
Wood
Chocolate

Are You More Yin or Yang?

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on
A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows
You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner
You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult
It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply
Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family
Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.
Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.
Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.
Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.
Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Best color to attract mate: Aqua

Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

Apparently, I'm like the freaking stereotypical Cancer.

I can't believe I'm watching football all by myself...GO JETS!

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 19:09:11 GMT

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Love	A
Friends and Family	A
Body	B
Mind	A
Finance / Career	B
Your Life's Average Grade: A
'What is your Life Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Sounds about right.

More Pictures of My Sister

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 20:50:23 GMT

Me and Greta making brownies for the neighbors on Christmas Eve:

Me reading Greta one of her books that she got for Christmas (note the sweet necklace that my Mom got for me):

Just put one foot in front of the other and soon you'll be walking out the doooooor!

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 04:10:21 GMT

Greta took her first steps today!!!!

I was holding her hands and walking with her and then I let go and she took four or five steps towards my Mom all on her own!!! We got her to do it several times before she got tired. We were all so proud of her. I was really excited that I was able to be a part of it.

Thanks for waiting until I came home to talk your first steps, baby!

<3 you, Greta!

If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 16:10:57 GMT

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?

O Christmas Tree, O Christmas Tree!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 03:24:55 GMT

We put up and decorated our Christmas tree today. I have a couple of pictures of the process for your viewing pleasure. The first I find highly amusing because my Mom had to use gigantic hedge trimmers just to get the tree to be able to stand up in our house:

The second one is Greta's first real experience with Christmas tree lights. She was around for them last year, but wasn't really old enough to appreciate them then. This year, she found them to be fascinating:

And this last one is just of Greta being a goofball during lunch:

That was my day.

I {heart} Clare

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 18:59:04 GMT

Uh-oh, I just realized that the Dan tag is getting bigger than the Clare tag (because I never get to see her, sadness!), so this entry is dedicated entirely to honoring the magnificence that is Clare Janet Carpenter. I MISS YOU!

I'm a tiger, alright

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 18:36:48 GMT

You Were Born Under:

Fierce and courageous - you are the king of every situation.
You pounce and attack, until others give you want you want.
Daring and magnetic, you inspire others to follow your lead.
And while you're wild at heart, you have some hidden soft spots.

You are most compatible with a Horse or Dog.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Just a little diversion for myself before I have to run to Peter's class. And oh-so-true.

Reefer makes you kill kittens

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 19:56:48 GMT

First off, CONGRATULATIONS to Jenifuhr on getting her proposal picked! She did a fabulous job proposing and had the Spiegel theater in stitches. I'm so excited to see Jenn get the chance to show the department what she can do (which I know is A LOT). Everyone needs to audition because this show is going to rock hardcore.

In other news, the surrogate is not pregnant, as I found out earlier this afternoon. I'm disappointed, to tell the truth. Enough said.

ITW opens this weekend. Come see it. It'll be good, I hope.

I'm so over school right now, it's ridiculous. I have absolutely no desire to do anything. I'm completely apathetic. And yet, I don't want January break to come because I know that three days in, I'll want to be back here like nobody's business. I just want a few days break and then a fresh start on a semester because right now, I'm done with the classes I've got going on.

At any rate, I've now spent enough time on this livejournal entry and avoiding my Art History paper. Adieu, mes amis.

Greetings from the People's Republic...

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 02:40:31 GMT

...as my Dad likes to call Massachusetts. It's freaking freezing up here. I have no idea how I survived living in New Hampshire for most of my life. Sheesh.

The drive up here was long last night, although I got some quality time in with my boys. I got to meet Dan's family and his Dad has promised to take me to Japan with him (sorry, Dan). Dan's dog Lady licked my face, so I think she likes me. What can I say? Dogs have good taste. It was amazing being amidst a family in which I was one of the tallest people present. That has never happened to me before.

After meeting the tribe, Adam gave me the tour of Braintree and Quincy. I got to see John Adams' house and the church where he was buried! Yay for John Adams. Now I feel as though I've made up for visiting Alexander Hamilton's grave. I also got to see Adam's Mom and sleep on his couch, so that was cool. I always love seeing my college friends in their natural habitats, so to speak. It really does give you brand new insight into people. I feel as though I know both Dan and Adam a little bit better now. Then I accompanied Adam to the DMV where we decided that we're siblings and Adam got new license plates.

Finally I made it to Malden and Mary's house. I hung around pretty much all day doing nothing but write in my sketchbook and watch the History Channel. Ahhhhh relaxing. We just picked up my brother from Logan, so the whole Tasker threesome is now reunited watching some special about Teddy Roosevelt. I'm looking forward to getting my butt kicked at Nintendo tomorrow and Friday. Not to mention the fact that we're going to visit Jake on Saturday, which I'm uber excited about. We haven't seen each other since we've been "grown ups."

Is it silly for me to admit that I definitely miss Dan already? I hate to be one of those saps, but I'm already very spoiled and dislike sleeping alone. He's probably too busy to even notice that I'm not there, what with being surrounded by about three hundred family members.

On a similar note, I also greatly miss seeing my roomie and suitemate. With class and rehearsal going until 11 at night and then me sleeping over at Dan's, I never get to see them. Can we schedule an Olive Garden night in the seriously near future, ladies? My treat. I miss you girls.

At any rate, Thanksgiving starts in about twelve minutes, so Happy Turkey Day! As I stated on my livejournal last year, I feel that this holiday is based on a historical event that turned out very badly for an indigenous people, so sometimes I have difficulty celebrating it with a clear conscience. The sentiment behind it, however, is good and it's certainly nice to have a few days that are largely free of homework (just a bit of Shakespeare to memorize). I intend to enjoy mounds of mashed potatoes and apple pie tomorrow, at the very least. Perhaps I'll even make a list of what I'm thankful for this year, much like I did last year. Adieu.

What it all comes down to is that everything's going to be fine, fine, fine

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 21:00:51 GMT

I love this song. Alanis Morissette is a genius. The endless set of dichotomies always seems to strike a chord with me. I mean, how incredibly appropriate would it be to say I'm sane, but I'm overwhelmed/I'm lost, but I'm hopeful/...I'm brave, but I'm chickenshit when describing myself? Because I can be very brave when I set my mind to it: moving from Florida to New York against the wishes of my family to pursue a major none of my friends took seriously was a huge deal for me...but at the same time, I have these moments when you'd think I'd have absolutely nothing to be unhappy about, but I'm paralyzed by a nameless, irrational fear that it's dangerous for me to be so unguarded.

I guess I'd like to just take a moment and apologize to anyone who's ever had to deal with my gargantuan set of insecurities (which, if you're reading my journal, you most likely have). I appreciate the support I get from all of you and the fact that my neuroses haven't scared you off yet.

On a lighter note, I suppose if Facebook says it, it must be true :) I haven't been this happy about any one aspect of my life in quite some time. It's so funny how you can find yourself in a situation that's so completely unexpected and so completely wonderful at the same time. I guess it goes to show that you never can plan what's going to happen; life loves to shock the fucking pants off of you.

Okay, I've got to go debate Japanese politics now. Hurrah Shinzo Abe!

Peace out, ladies and gents.

Get ready to wiggle...we've been ready for so long!

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 03:46:21 GMT

Umm...so the Wiggles concert was pretty much amazing. I don't care if I sound like an eight-year-old, I had a ton of fun jumping around to their catchy little ditties. Greta really enjoyed herself, as well, although she didn't always know exactly what to make of it. We had decent seats, but got up and moved to empty ones in the first row about halfway through. Anthony (my favorite Wiggle; he's the blue one), looked right at me and smiled and waved. It was awesome. Greta and I both got souvenirs. If you ask me, I'll definitely show you mine because it lights up. Woah flashbacks to my childhood. After the concert, we stopped at McDonald's and Greta and I played in the playhouse, which was pretty fun, too. It was Greta's first time. I remember it being a lot less hard on the knees when I was a kid.

So, to sum it all up, I basically spent the entire day acting like my age consisted of a single digit and that was just fine.

Tomorrow, back to Hofstra. I miss Hofstra. And I miss you.

Surprisingly enough, Jenn wasn't as shocked as I thought she'd be. So that was good.

Rain, Rain, Go Away, Come Again Another Day

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 03:39:21 GMT

So I just wanted to share with the world that I had an amazingly awful and powerful and moving and tragic experience in Peter's class during Matt's sonnet work and it really recharged my belief in my ability to act. I love you, Matty Weaver!

As a certain several people behind me just toasted, "To new beginnings!"

If you loved me, you would be here with me

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 23:29:36 GMT

Don't mind the emo subject line. I know my family loves me, but it just sucks that they couldn't make it here today. Not to mention, my sister has a 102 degree fever and that's nothing to scoff at. I'm just worried that my Mom and Larry will have missed my only "real" show at college if I don't get cast in another department show. And my only show here so far that I had my own bow. Not that I deserved it, but I still got to take it. Grr. It just really hurt that they couldn't make it here. At least my Mom was equally upset that they couldn't come. She promised me that they'd never make plans to see the last show of one of my runs again. I couldn't stop crying while we were getting ready to start the show and I felt completely ridiculous and childish, but I couldn't help it.

Now I guess I really just HAVE to get cast again. God, it would be orgasmic to be in the Shakespeare. Too bad I'm a crazy ho to even think that I have a chance.

I'm going to miss Iolanthe very badly. I had a ton of fun. Okay, I'm not going to talk about it anyone because it will just make my P.S.S. worse.

In other news, Jenn and I are driving home together this weekend, which I'm really looking forward to. I can't wait to get some quality time with the roomie and to see my family. I miss my Mom and Theo and Larry and Greta like nobody's business.

I'm proud of myself for making a good decision this weekend. I think it was for the best.

I'm less proud of myself for not knowing what to do about another situation and not knowing who to talk to about it. For now, I'm just keeping it bottled up inside.

RANDOM SHOUT-OUT: Whitney, I love you and he's such a huge asshole. You're gorgeous and talented and smart and an amazing friend and anyone who doesn't appreciate that simply doesn't deserve to live. Okay, I'm done. For now.

The more I think about it, the more I love the life I'm living RIGHT NOW and that scares me immensely because I've never felt like I wanted to stop time so much in my life. I've always wanted to just get on with it and move to the next stage of my life, but I'm having so much fun these days that I never want it to end and it's petrifying. I'm scared to grow up for the first time in my life.

Alright, I'm going to stop monopolizing Dan's computer and go lay down and monopolize his bed instead. Because that's the kind of nice person that I am :)

I love you all, I truly do. Please know that whatever kind of a wench I am, I do love you and am so happy that you're all in my life. Adieu.